Why I Want To Be A Writer…For Gran

When I was a kid I used to love writing stories so much. Every Sunday afternoon I would sit in my Gran’s living room and pen only 3 or 4 pages but I enjoyed doing it. Then she would read them and tell me what she thought. Every time she would tell me that she loved them even though they were probably terrible.

At 9 years old she would tell me that I will be a writer some day and that I should never give up. I used to write adventurous stories about space, time travelling tornados, the aftermath of a nuclear attack and being stuck in a school for survival, a plane crashing in the middle of a field. That sort of thing. I had a wild imagination at that age. No one knew where this came from, I certainly didn’t. But it felt like I was there.

After my parents got divorced I would write a lot to distance myself from everything. A few people said my mind was messed up but my Gran would dismiss these comments and say my mind was creative and should be encouraged. “Never give up what you love,” she said, “You have the ability to make people laugh, cry and be scared by what you write.”

I wrote many short stories up until I was 14, then other distractions got in the way and I couldn’t concentrate anymore and I turned to poetry instead.

It wasn’t until the worst day of my life back on 25th July 2005 when she died that I made a promise to myself to never give up on what I love. My world came crashing down around me and I picked myself up by writing again. It’s getting close to when her birthday should be (7th June) and thinking about those times more than ever is reminding me of exactly why I’m so desperate to be a successful writer and why I get so annoyed at myself when I can’t get the words on paper even though they’re flowing through my mind. It’s because I don’t want to let her down. The last thing she said to me before she died was keep writing and I made her a promise that I would. I just wish she was around to see it.

So there you go, these are my reasons and if you can hear me, Gran, everything I do is because of you. Because of you I’m the person I am today and I miss you so much. Thank You.

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About lianehoarephotography

Well the name is Liane Hoare as you could possibly guess from the name of this website and the nature of it should tell you that I have a keen interest in photography and poetry. I am in no-way a professional photographer but one day, who knows. Any spare time I have you will find me out and about with my digital camera, which at the moment I use a Kodak Z710 which has a 12 x optical zoom so I can get close to my subjects without getting too close. I try to get out as much and as often as possible, whatever the weather. I go to Carshalton Ponds in Surrey on a regular basis, I have a good rappor with the squirrels there. No matter where I go though I take my camera out with me. You'll find photos on here from Manchester, Kent, Caterham, Cardiff, Brighton and London. Animals are my favourite subjects, I try to get snaps of squirrels, birds and even pets belonging to friends and family. You could say that nature is where I am most comfortable. I have only really shown a keen interest in photography for about two years now since I got the Kodak Z710, before I just used to take a little 3 x digital zoom camera out with me when I went out with friends - as you do. Now it has become a hobby I would like to turn into a career. I try to enter photography competitions when I can nowadays and recently entered into one on the National Trust, I'll do anything to get noticed now - within reason of course. With regards to poetry, I've been writing that for over 10 years now. In the past I used to write things down, put it away and forget about it, until one day someone found some, read it and told me to do something with them. I started off by posting them on Facebook a few months ago, just to see what people thought and I was needless to say surprised by the comments. To me it's always been a very personal thing, something that I would keep to myself as I thought that other people would shun or laugh at it, I didn't expect people to say they actually thought it was good. That's when I decided to put together this website. Combined with my photos I feel it gives a good insight to the person I am and who I am capable of being and hopefully you will feel the same way. In the future I would like to be a professional photographer, and writer come to that. My ultimate goal is to live in California and be set up with my own business in said fields. And I hope that one day I could make my dream a reality. I've since upgraded to an EOS Canon 100d DSLR camera and have never looked back. Best thing I ever did!

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